Sobriety, V2.

[m2711c]

Good luck to ya man! Keep on truckin’ on.

[riser4]

A good friend of mine would get GALLON ZIPLOCKS filled with thousands of Valium in the mail at our last Colorado ski bum house in 2009/2010. I miraculously didn't partake in those very often, but when I did it was gross. Especially if you mix with booze. A benzo and 3 or 4 drinks is like drinking 12 drinks without the benzo. I had my last ever drink during this period. April 2010. It was getting pretty dark.

Our friend who got the shipments of valium? That was one of the funniest, kindest, smartest people I ever knew? Yeah he's dead now.

DO NOT FUCK AROUND WITH BENZOS. They are massively overprescribed classic "USA we love big pharma instead of actually working on ourselves" bullshit.

What you said. I miss the people I knew who died mixing Valium and alcohol.

[Dantheman]

What you said. I miss the people I knew who died mixing Valium and alcohol.

It's a very dangerous combination: https://wiki.tripsit.me/images/3/3a/Combo_2.png

[skaredshtles]

It's a very dangerous combination: https://wiki.tripsit.me/images/3/3a/Combo_2.png

Cliff's Notes: stick to booze + weed.

[yeahman]

Cliff's Notes: stick to weed.

FIFY

[TWINS]

Today is 1 month no alcohol. That shit is poison.

I was drinking and partying waaaay too much. I was blaming it on stress and life issues. Obviously the drinking just made it worse. I tried being a responsible drinker, only on weekends, only a couple.


I was at a business dinner, on a Wednesday night being that "responsible drinker." Wine turned into sake bombs and that turned into DJ 1942 shots and that was last memory of that evening.


I woke up on the couch, my wife was very upset. I only have a slight idea of what happened because I either pocket dialed my wife or purposely called her to get help and she experienced the following.

She heard the Uber driver telling me to get out of the car, I was saying "this is not my house, take me home." He pepper sprayed me. My wife hears me moaning in pain and asking the driver "why did you do that?" " you're gunna go to jail" He leaves me for dead. Now my wife hears me outside wailing and I'm close to our house but she cant find me. She thinks I've been stabbed and she's freaking out running around our neighborhood looking for me in bushes etc. I'm actually behind our house in the neighbors yard (???) I somehow hear her and climb our 10' wood fence, while blinded avoiding several impalement opportunities and march in to the house like a wrecking ball. I broke a family heirloom, said mean shit to my loving wife, all of the above and then some.

0.0 memory of anything


I completely broke down. sobbing, ashamed, embarrassed full of regret. I could have easily been killed, tried driving home, ???? who fucking knows. A life changing event.


I'm really enjoying not drinking. I'm becoming a person I'm proud of again. Life is a trip. wish me luck. I wish you all the best.

That addicted version of you is not who you were born to be.
Its not you.
I'm glad you recognize this and can now become your true self. For that to happen you need to love yourself unconditionally with all your faults and shortcomings.
Once you pick yourself and decide to love yourself unconditionally you won't want to consume something toxic like ethanol. I'm so happy you didn't have to destroy everything to get here.
Wishing you peace and clarity.

[Core Shot]

Taking another stab at it. Maybe this is it. It’s months into it that I somehow forget why I wanted to quit.

Oootah is a great place to start. Say what you will about Mormons but it’s refreshing not to have a packy on every corner or a state where it’s in the grocery store. You have to go out of your way to score. Which gives you time to think about that next purchase.
Having a shitty day and driving by ten packys on the way home is like being Charlie Sheen in Vegas.
When I’m on my game, I drive by and say not today, death peddlers, fuck you.

Rarely get blasted. It’s more of a gut digestive thing. Once I sauce it fucks up my biome (making me want it daily), not to mention the gaba gaba hey fuckery

Sober January is a thing? I thought it was October. January doesn’t even rhyme.

[skaredshtles]

FIFY

Dammit. You're right. [emoji106]

[Todd Zander]

Not going to quote your awesome(at the time) alcohol infused story Dheli, but as my cousin told me once everyone has a different bottom, and as a fully functioning alcoholic I think you found it.

Good luck and I’ll pm you my number if you ever wanna chat, I’m coming up on a year in a couple weeks myself.

[liv2ski]

Dhelis story is fucking nuts. Never been that lit up on booze. While in France, you drink wine.

[Dhelihiker]

Not going to quote your awesome(at the time) alcohol infused story Dheli, but as my cousin told me once everyone has a different bottom, and as a fully functioning alcoholic I think you found it.

Good luck and I’ll pm you my number if you ever wanna chat, I’m coming up on a year in a couple weeks myself.

Thanks Man! I haven't made the "I'll never drink again" rule in my head. I may never drink again but not putting that pressure on the day to day is working.

I feel healthier in ways I didn't expect. My recovery time after exercise is way better. Replacing alcohol with water and tea means you wake up fresh and hydrated- hey now.

I'm kinder and more thoughtful in life. Less mood swings.

I read that you dont "give up" drugs and alcohol, when you quit you gain everything back that you gave up for drugs and alcohol. There is some wisdom there.

Not preaching, to each their own.

[Shorty_J]

What do you do when you like yourself better when your drunk? And other people do too?

It's possibly I'm not seeing that 100% clearly but it's also possible I am.

Asking for a friend ....

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[Shorty_J]

Answer I already knew.... Just stop.

I need some help please.

Anyone around Calgary want to help. Please?

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[byates1]

We are here man. Pm me your number can talk whenever. Hope all is good.

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[Shorty_J]

We are here man. Pm me your number can talk whenever. Hope all is good.

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Thank you.

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[skiJ]

guys - short of starting a new thread ( - If this is unacceptable use of this thread, I will delete this post )
... short of starting a new thread, I thought those who visit this thread might have insight - and encouragement.

word came yesterday the my 58yr old childhood friend has drunk himself to failing health
( liver failure, encephalopathy, kidney disease, heart disease ) ;
his previous update was that his numbers were good, despite awareness of a behavioral problem ( drinking to unconsciousness, I believe.
I would not have been surprised to hear, one day, he just did not wake-up )

a family crisis two years ago led to an escalation ;
two drinks after six weeks sober, ,,, his only son turned-away. Nothing in more than two years.

I want to encourage my friend
( I feel like I am losing a member of my family. he has been my friend for more than fifty years ) -
he has support where he is -

to my hearing, he is a candidate to become a candidate for a liver transplant, if he lives several more months ( and stays sober ) ;
he has said it is his goal ànd his intent.

I have lost other friends to alcohol
( but no one I have known for fifty years ) .
And no one that chronicled months of bad health -
The goal is a liver transplant ;
Today I don't know that he will live long enough to become A Candidate.

I wrote to him this morning -
I will write to him each week and we can Talk anytime he wants to ( that has been rare . )
he is 300miles away.

Thanks... and Thank you.

tj

[Whiteroom_Guardian]

I celebrate 14 years today.

SkiJ, the reality is that there really isn't much you can do for your friend. Assuming he's well aware of AA or other programs, therapy, etc etc it's up to him. Visit with him. Be his friend. It's only 300 miles. Take a drive over there and just be present.

[skiJ]

Thank you, WrG -
it is my understanding he has been sober since October ;
with multiple organ involvement, it's not a good prognosis.
Thank you for your insight, and congratulations! on your sobriety !

skiJ

[TNKen]

Daughter just clicked over 600 days sober.

While in rehab, she decided to go to nursing school, found a place, and a way to pay for it. I help w/ household bills and gas. Top 10 in her class with a 98 average in all of her classes. Totally different kid.

[mcski]

That’s some fantastic news

[riser4]

Daughter just clicked over 600 days sober.

While in rehab, she decided to go to nursing school, found a place, and a way to pay for it. I help w/ household bills and gas. Top 10 in her class with a 98 average in all of her classes. Totally different kid.

Wishing your family the best one day at a time.

[ASmileyFace]

An old drinking buddy passed two days ago far too young. Despite multiple attempts at sobriety it finally did him in. He was part of a group of friends I have grown away from over the years and it had probably been 2 or 3 years since I had seen him. Last I had heard, the friends had gone no contact because he just wouldn't sober up and all other attempts to get him help had failed in the past. RIP.

[Whiteroom_Guardian]

RIP your friend

[Dantheman]

Daughter just clicked over 600 days sober.

While in rehab, she decided to go to nursing school, found a place, and a way to pay for it. I help w/ household bills and gas. Top 10 in her class with a 98 average in all of her classes. Totally different kid.

Congrats, Ken. That's really great.