I was just sitting here listening to a boring meeting thinking back
My first job after the Airforce was in a hospital working with all the people who maintain the place. Electricians plumbers electronics
There were several men who would stop at a bar down the street that opened every morning at 6 am
Then come to work an hour early to play domino’s
You could not tell they had to start the day drunk
At the time I was young and could not comprehend it
Now I understand and it makes me sad
Own your fail. ~Jer~
Huh? Told I have to curtail my drinking (which I have done for the last 10 days) and you are mad cuz I would like something other than weed to take the edge off. No worries, the question was answered elsewhere, so go fuck yourself.
Never in U.S. history has the public chosen leadership this malevolent. The moral clarity of their decision is crystalline, particularly knowing how Trump will regard his slim margin as a “mandate” to do his worst. We’ve learned something about America that we didn’t know, or perhaps didn’t believe, and it’ll forever color our individual judgments of who and what we are.
Yea. We need to take it easy on each other. Consider a person’s frame of mind when they type. A cut each other a bunch of slack
Pitty the internet and this place are so heavy monitored that you can’t really be honest about anything
The past few months I have lived the cleanest sober rigid life I have ever lived
But not good enough I’m in some minor trouble again
No big deal just more shit I have to drag around
Own your fail. ~Jer~
that’s the spirit!
I didn't believe in reincarnation when I was your age either.
I just learned about Xanax. Last week. I never tried it
I was told it’s the same buzz as alcohol
Funny all the treatment professionals trying to get people off of whatever it is
Have no problem talking you into antidepressants.
How fucked up is that?
Own your fail. ~Jer~
same as suboxone or methadone when coming off H or opiates. It’s fucked. They offer it like it’s some great thing, all it is is a crutch and keeps you hooked to the same feeling. It has its purpose for detox for sure, but beyond that, it’s not a permanent maintenance program or at least shouldn’t be. You have to learn to live all over again, but it’s really fun, and life is pretty fucking great not waking up sick and shitty feeling everyday.
There's a time and a place for prescriptions drugs. Limited use of benzos (aka Xanax and similar family of drugs) for medically supervised detox. Yes, that's standard practice when treating those with serious alcohol dependence trying to get clean. Anti-depressants have a place too. Personally, I think they are effective during early sobriety but (again....my experience) they should not be a long term solution. Perhaps in conjunction with rigorous self improvement, program, therapy, tremendous amounts of exercise, etc....but not in lieu of the self work.
Problem with the state of western medicine today is that so many people just get pilled up for years and then don't actually do any of the work needed to heal their brain chemistry, build new neural pathways, repair the damaged ones, learn new tools to live life and deal with anxiety/depression etc........
Just bump up the script and don't do anything else to actually change your life.
I've seen far too many people get dependent on Xanax in particular. It's pretty sad.
Drug/alcohol addiction and mental illness are brutal. I just had a family member call me just now (after I ignored their phone calls all night long) to tell me about how the secret service has been following them for years. A grown adult with children that is utterly lost due to their addictions and unwillingness to get help.
Long story short from a thread elsewhere, there is nothing on the market that comes close to a alcohol buzz, so I won't be pursuing any prescription drugs. If ludes were still around they would be closest, but doing those daily like a few glasses of wine would be disastrous.
I will humor the doc and stay dry for awhile, do a new blood test in April and see where we are at then. To those that struggle with drugs and alcohol, no disrespect was meant by my comments.
I am out.
Never in U.S. history has the public chosen leadership this malevolent. The moral clarity of their decision is crystalline, particularly knowing how Trump will regard his slim margin as a “mandate” to do his worst. We’ve learned something about America that we didn’t know, or perhaps didn’t believe, and it’ll forever color our individual judgments of who and what we are.
Couple things.
Benzodiazepines act at the same receptor as alcohol….not a good substitute if stopping alcohol is your end goal.
Next, no fucking way I could leave half a drink on the table or half a bottle.
Marijuana use is not sober.
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Drunk: How We Sipped, Danced, and Stumbled Our Way to Civilization https://g.co/kgs/PQVdJr
I liked this, an objective historical take on alcohol. Basically everything humans have built and done is, in part, bc of drinking.
I've had my share and stoked to have put it down. Was a long time coming for me. Life is clear, peaceful and serene.
Taking it all in.
After few months of dealing with an unfair world I decided to freerun for a couple days. I’m ready to re engage
What a world.
I will sleep like a baby tonight. knowing that drinking and my future do not fit in the same sentence
It is what it is
Own your fail. ~Jer~
nope
I don’t give a shit if I’m sober. I give a shit that I don’t drink. Weed doesn’t really “help” me not drink per se, but I don’t think it hurts me either. I certainly don’t smoke near as much as I did when I was drinking too much. Weed doesn’t make me want to drink, though. Depression, anxiety, loneliness, isolation? Those make me want to drink. And drinking makes those worse.
So don’t drink muthafuckers.
I didn't believe in reincarnation when I was your age either.
I read that book too--I think I got the rec from an atlantic article someone posted in this thread. I'm glad I read it but I wouldn't give it to someone early in recovery. 80% of the book is about why alcohol is helpful, seems too easy to use it for justifying unhealthy behavior. "Science says..."
Appreciate all of you and your various journeys, thanks for sharing.
Fuck. Drank too much coffee and let too much of the world in my head
2am lights are out except the phone in my hand
Don’t you just hate it when you can’t sleep!
Meeting at 7am. Got to be on my game
Couple of stuff drinks would put me down
No longer an option
Own your fail. ~Jer~
Atta boy, MTT. Give kitty a scritch on her head for me.
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Stay strong MTT. That's why we call it "thirty days of a thousand nights".. It does get better, I promise.
Go that way really REALLY fast. If something gets in your way, TURN!
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