
Originally Posted by
Djongo Unchained
I kinda stopped caring so much about the time I turned 18. The first time; I'll be celebrating my 3rd 18th birthday this October - 54 yrs.
I plan on dying young - I'll be in my twenties when I go.
I had high hopes for the world and it just doesn't seem to be on the pace I expected. I am not a particularly unhappy person, just didn't realize how fucked people can be. And the planet suffers for it.
When my Mother passed, I realized what an endless amount of hope I have for the things I care about. And there's the conflict, I think everything can be better. Not everyone agrees, so, fuck 'em...
Fresh outta school, I said fuck it, I'm gonna have fun. Period. Gonna work, live, love but never under anothers thumb. I have suffered for that. And become stronger for the pain.
But I wouldn't do it differently either. If I get the 2 weeks left diagnosis, then well, I've succeeded in my goal. Fucking win.
Never cared about hoarding da monies, making bebes or improving the world. Just wanna live man.
Couldn't give a single motherfucking fuck about friends either. Never needed them, often gave up on them as I felt they were sucking the life from me by including me in their shitshow. My brain rarely fails me and so eventually, it's all I have to rely on. I'm good with that.
My ski bum life will be tenuous to the end. Not afraid of the future.
And so, here I am on the TGRz. How fuckakta izzat?
The people I seem to relate to best, for better or worse, are ski bums, mountainfolk... many of you. This place has afforded me the opportunity to meet so many mags who remind me of the positive Irie I have always sought out.
And that, KQ, is what has changed for me. I have genuinely had to readjust my perspective on many things important to me, because of this place. Again, that is super fucked but, there it is.
So many of you I would jump up and do anything for. Because we have become friends.
I guess I used to 'could care less' but things have changed for me as well.
Live for today, tomorrow never comes.
edit: many of you know I don't drink much. Laughably slow on a beer. Maybe an annual cocktail. But I smoke a lotta ganja. And yeah, gainfully employed all my life.
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