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07-16-2021, 10:02 AM #51
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07-16-2021, 01:23 PM #52
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07-16-2021, 02:10 PM #53
Some say the world will end in fire
others say in ice
from what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire
But if it had to perish twice
I'd say that for destruction hate
is also great
and would suffice.
RF
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07-16-2021, 02:21 PM #54
alcohol keeps me up at night
i must say i'm less interested in it as i get older
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07-16-2021, 03:01 PM #55
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07-16-2021, 03:54 PM #56Registered User
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07-16-2021, 05:27 PM #57
Maybe we'll get to see that Yellowstone eruption:
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07-17-2021, 01:48 AM #58
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07-17-2021, 09:03 AM #59
These have kept me up at night. And made me inattentive and distracted in the day. And the stupid people who've been kept up at night worrying about stupid shit and then being distracted during the day have been driving me nuts, too. That has been a fun ride toward hell.
Thread progression indicates the greatest threat to existence is probably existentialism. I live it as a repeating loop in which Pascal always turns out to be right (again). The truth in Yeti's words are obvious but also no more defensible than Tom Papa's position: you're doing great. You're doing great.
The realization that my optimism had gone missing was keeping me up one night a week or two ago when a friend texted that the Almost Live Still Alive podcast provides increased vitality through nostalgia and comedy. I concur. It's a crying shame that such a small slice of humanity remembers Booth Gardner's solemn pledge to get even with Ross Schaeffer, because an hour a day with Pat Cashman is the shit.
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07-17-2021, 08:50 PM #60Registered User
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07-19-2021, 10:13 PM #61
I have a lot of time to think.
The process of living in my hometown jogs a lot of small memories. I think about all the experiences that produced me, and how I needed them at various survival moments in my life, and almost all of them are extinct for kids growing up now. I wonder how they’re ever going to function. I wonder who will pick lettuce and carry bricks in the hot sun? Who will be moving trailers around the truck yard when it’s 20 below?
Today’s bus passengers haunt me.
The quiet, skeletal woman living in the woods far, far in the middle of nowhere, hobbling off into the mosquito woods with her things from the store. Was that a person or a ghost? If we watched the camera footage, would it just look like an empty bus…opening the door for nothing?
The young man at a far-flung rural public housing not showing up to his ride to work. I wait, getting later and later, texting his mom, my coworker, to see what’s up…she rushes over to try to get him to get his dumb ass on the bus and not miss work, then she gives up. I leave super late and heartbroken. Is he going to lose his job?
The two different old people who each, separately, individually jerked me around by waiting in wrong places they know don’t work for the bus, when they know exactly the proper place to wait. Miserable bitter lonely elderly people with no cards left to play in life except to flex weird passive aggressive power plays on the people ostensibly helping them live independently. It’s a repeating theme, the miserable old person desperately finding a way to exert some kind of control by purposefully making something difficult for me in my job. The sad, bitter cloud of desperation and sadness slimes me with a psychological stain, and here I lay, up at night, pecking it into my phone, hoping maybe telling you about it might make it go away long enough to find sleep.
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07-19-2021, 10:27 PM #62
visceral. vivid. thank you for sharing.
sometimes there are no answers. there's only tomorrow and the will to go on.Last edited by ntblanks; 07-19-2021 at 11:06 PM.
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07-19-2021, 11:34 PM #63Hucked to flat once
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Ill, your posts make me look at the world differently and I appreciate it. Sorry it’s from your experiences but thank you for writing the words.
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07-20-2021, 07:33 AM #64
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